An Apology

Forgive me, my child
I have only these tears to spare.
Bygone are the days
Of thy childhood's mirth, I learn!

Facade of life's soaring heights
Blinded this wretched soul.
Yet,
I have loved you,
And still do,
Much more than the dreams
In my heart!
For my womb's fluid desires
Speak to me
In every breath you take!

Life shall give me
No better joy, than
The joy in your eyes!
Yet, forgive me, my child,
For your sullen eyes
Tell stories of my guilt.

I did not know
When night's strangest fears
Scarred your soul,
I did not listen
When pangs of your teen heart
Cried for help!

Yet,
Before the dusk sets in
Let me sing
Lullabies long forgotten,
To you and to me,
Or may be I never will,
Who knows,
Which child sleeps too soon!